Naive

It was naive to think that one could get well in such an enviroment that SRF had to offer. There was of course a lot of things that was good, to start with like in all cults. The family I stayed with eate very healthy food for instance. But smoking tobacco was also part of the routine. There is no possibility to heal one self around people that smoke and I got more and more ill. The leaders at that time very much wanted to get rid of Michael Anast, and the psychic explanation was that the reason for my pains at that time was because of Michael, he was a controlling spirit that caused people to have problem with their third chakra. As those that have studied meditation knows that the tird chakra is in the middle of ones stomach. Problem with the third chakra causes stomach ace. There I was and could not do anything about it. The true reason came from the one person who mentioned the cause, the person who was smoking. Me myself was naive and thought that I would be able to quit smoking as soon as I left Sweden. My fathers woman used to smoke a lot everywhere and I used to be sick from it, but then after some years, when they went on vacation and I was alone, I started to miss the tobacco. Tobacco can make people dependent by contact, and I started to smoke. When I left Sweden I had been smoking tobacco for about a year, so to me it seemed like something that would be easy to quit as soon as I got away from home. I never knew that tobacco was so poisening, it contains about 6000 different poisions. A person that smokes should be in a mental ward in my opinion. It is super destructive. Now it is like this, as in this SRF some of the leaders smoked also rev. Bill smoked heavily. Rev. Bill even talked about the good sides of smoking as I have had explained to me by another member. According to Bill, smoking should be very grounding, and everybody wanted to be grounded. If you had problems with your healt, grouning would also be and easy method to get rid of problems with your healt and forign energies that might get your chakras stuck.
Well, It is good I was not the best of students, and I did not get stuck in the teaching for long, I most certinly would not have been around on this planet if I had. But some of the teachings have changed my life for ever, it has taken a lot from my life. It has hurt my healt a loot, of course, like for many other people that went there, hoping to get and to be able to heal themselves.
I think that in the U.S people are creative, even the crooks are creative. I came to think about dr. Atkins who has killed so many people with his bogus diet. How on earth do you put with going five or six years to university, just to come up with a diet like that? Is it not easier to just rob a bank ?, at least it is more humane. There are many scams there.
Here where I live the socitety is different, we had socialism and creativity is not so big. On the other hand, living in a socialist country is like living in a cult. It is a little bit like being a Jehovas witness, but being totally unhealty. Know we dont have socialism any longer, but many want it back, and European politics is so instable.